...a little weepy today. Life really is great overall...my kids are happy and healthy, my future is bright as Steve and I get ready to move into our dream house, I have seen some scrappy goals come to fruition, friends are good...
but I am weepy. I have a reason. I am nervous about my dad. He will be having open heart surgery at the week's end. Truly, I realize that it is a routine operation these days and the success rate is fabulous. But he is my dad. Has been my rock for all of my life. There is no one quite like him to me. So I am nervous.
It is probably exaggerated by the fact that my family can't take any more tragedy or loss. We have suffered so much this past year. Everyone is just coming out of the grief. There will always be a sadness, regret and loss. But the light is back in people's eyes and plans for the future are being formulated with great enthusiasm. So I am nervous.
I didn't realize it until I was standing in my kitchen and started to cry a bit. It happens, those days where you just feel off no matter what is happening around you.
And so, I share it. Put it out into the universe, write about it, scrap about it because I gain strength from that process. And I know that I am supported, that prayers will follow.
Wanted to share a layout I created for the ezine...captures all the emotions surrounding family loss.
I know that happy days can't exist without weepy days. That I will have many moments where I am nervous. It will be okay...it has to be!