but I am weepy. I have a reason. I am nervous about my dad. He will be having open heart surgery at the week's end. Truly, I realize that it is a routine operation these days and the success rate is fabulous. But he is my dad. Has been my rock for all of my life. There is no one quite like him to me. So I am nervous.
It is probably exaggerated by the fact that my family can't take any more tragedy or loss. We have suffered so much this past year. Everyone is just coming out of the grief. There will always be a sadness, regret and loss. But the light is back in people's eyes and plans for the future are being formulated with great enthusiasm. So I am nervous.
I didn't realize it until I was standing in my kitchen and started to cry a bit. It happens, those days where you just feel off no matter what is happening around you.
And so, I share it. Put it out into the universe, write about it, scrap about it because I gain strength from that process. And I know that I am supported, that prayers will follow.
Wanted to share a layout I created for the ezine...captures all the emotions surrounding family loss.
I know that happy days can't exist without weepy days. That I will have many moments where I am nervous. It will be okay...it has to be!
Es la primera vez que vengo a visitarte, pero me has conmovido...¡ánimo!, las cosas vienen como deben y hay que enfrentarlas, Dios estará contigo, estoy segura.
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Laura
I will be thinking of you Stacey. I can't say I know what it's like to have a father go through surgery of any kind. But to be out of control of a situation I am well familiar with. I am so thankful that I have a strength and a peace that comes from God to help carry me through those times. And friends...they are the ones who want to come in and comfort us in times like this. I know from following your blog for a while now, that you have many. I have no doubt you will be blessed doubly in return for sharing humbly with us. Take comfort in their peace, and their strength, and put one foot in front of the other until you greet your father post surgery.
ReplyDeleteHi Stacey,
ReplyDeleteYour Dad and family will be in my thoughts this weekend... I know how difficult it is to watch someone you love go through surgery -- even if it is "routine". My Dad had surgery years ago and I was a wreck. He came through it though with flying colors and I'm sure your Dad is a trooper, too -- especially with all the thoughts and prayers with him!
And by the way, your layout is beautiful and that photo is just amazing... you are blessed to have caputred the moment -- even as sad as it is... at least you'll never forget that precious face!
Hugs...
Jen
{{{hugs}}}
ReplyDeletethe layout is stunning
So sorry for the difficult things you are going through. Thinking of you:)
ReplyDeletei am sorry to hear about your dad's surgery....i will have him in my prayers...and i totally get weepy days...i think we can all relate to that!! :) I loveeeeeeeeeeeeee that lo....it is sooooooooooooo amazing!!! i loveeeeeeee that touching photo and loveeeeeeee your handwriting!!! thanks soooooooooooo much for contacting me tonight, completely made my week (and YES! i know its only monday...lol!) :):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):)
ReplyDeleteI will be thinking of you this week and keeping your family in my thoughts and prayers.
ReplyDeleteI will be thinking about your father and your family! Your layout is so touching and it will always be hard to find words of comfort but just know that your nephew had reached out and touched our lives via your artwork.
ReplyDeleteSending a great big hug your way! :) And that layout is gorgeous!
ReplyDeleteWhat a beautiful LO, hun!
ReplyDeleteYou're all in my thoughts. ♥
Sending you lots of love. I will be thinking and praying that your father will be o.k Your layout is so moving and beautiful, I'm sitting here with tears in my eyes.
ReplyDeletehugs /Veronica
That LO is gorgeous. Sending huge (((hugs))) to you, and will be praying for your dad.
ReplyDeleteOh Stacey.....you are allowed to be weepy..I have that kinda day yesterday and what your Dad is facing is super scary...I will keep you all in my thoughts and prayers!!!!
ReplyDeleteThe LO is so touching and yes you all have been through so much!!! Hugs to you sweet friend....
Sending prayers & hugs...
ReplyDeleteBeautiful LO, too.
I'll be thinking about you and your Dad Stacey. My husband had a triple bypass and valve replacement three years ago and it was a very scary time. It was almost scarier to me the first few days of recovery - I wasn't prepared for the level of disability at first. But things DO GET BETTER! He is fine now. He has more energy. So focus on all the good stuff to come!
ReplyDeleteNancy
Sending prayers for your dad! Your layout is gorgeous and so well written. Beautiful job Stacey!
ReplyDeleteHey Stacey- prayers, hugs and all kinds of positive vibes are being sent your way...It's wonderful that you have the creative means to express yourself- I'm certain it makes you stronger and with the tremendous amount of love and support of all your family and friends....your are right in that everything will turn out just FINE!! :)
ReplyDeleteLove- Jules
oh hugs Stacey! You and your family will be in my thoughts. Very touching layout too, beautiful x
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