The past 6 months have been quite interesting. Upheaval can make you reevaluate things. For a while I really shifted in my thinking and feeling. I was just happy for the little everyday things. I made this layout to celebrate it.
(Supplies: New My Mind's Eye Lost and Found collection!)
But it seems like I lost this feeling a bit. Instead of being grateful, I find myself in a transition. The house not being done and settled, going back to work, both of my kids in school, tension with Steve because there is stress. I am stuck in a pattern where I am complaining about things. Like the belly I want to lose...it doesn't seem like a big deal, but I don't feel like me. I feel weighed down. Yet, I don't make moves to fix it.
I wish those good phases could last longer. Or I could find a way to hang on to the core feeling, in spite of everything else going on. I think that may be the secret to life.
Maybe this transition period will bring me to a new level of change. I suppose I am in control of that. If only I embraced it. I have until October 2nd (my birthday)...time to get my hug on.
STUNNING work and you are goooorgeous!!
ReplyDeleteYou are turning 40? Wow. You are so young at heart that it doesn't matter how many days or years go by. The page is so beautiful. I love how you always capture the important things in your journaling.
ReplyDeleteIt's a beautiful layout and I think you're right... happiness and the ability to focus on each good thing comes and goes.
ReplyDeleteLife is a series of hills and valley. Right now it sounds like you are in a valley. That's okay. Even in the valley God is good and carries you. It's these valley that really help us to appreciate the hills. Even the most beautiful hill would get boring if it was all you ever got to look at. Sorry if that sounds too "preachy" I'm not trying to. It's just that thats exactly what I go through too! Keep our chin up!!
ReplyDeleteWell, you certainly don't look like you're going to be 40 & that's ALL that counts. Age is just a number, NOT a state of mind. And if you ask me... my 40's are even better than my 30's!
ReplyDeleteBeautiful LO, as always! :-)
Oh this LO is just perfect!!!! Change is difficult....it takes work..I know I am trying to move ahead...and I find myself, slipping back into what is easy....You can do it.....take your time and discover the wonders of change!!!
ReplyDeleteThanks for sharing with us and wishing you a great day!!!
What a beautiful LO!!
ReplyDeletebeautiful lo to express how you are feeling right now :D
ReplyDeletewow wow wow wow!!! this is powerful stacey and I totally feel you!! I loveeeeeeeeeeeee that lo... just amazing! :):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):)
ReplyDeleteI so hear you. This past year I've felt much the same. There was never really a constant just short spells of contentment, followed by longer spells of dissatisfaction over various things: my weight, the fact that I'm a SAHM, and still don't know what I'm going to do with the rest of my life, wanting to move, worrying that I don't spend enough 1-on-1 time with my kids, etc. I think that peace comes when we learn to accept that all we have is today, it's really the only thing that is somewhat in our power. When I choose to live with that type of intentionality I am so much happier, and those around me feel it too. Hope you're feeling 'the change' upon you too. {Hugs}
ReplyDeleteHere's to hoping the world looks as good as you do as a 40-year old, I'd be surprised if you don't get carded if you order a drink at a bar!! Getting older is a wonderful thing, consider the alternative!! love your layout!!
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